Our health is the foundation of our life experience. When we have energy and vitality our outlook shifts, our relationships improve, we are more productive… we have more JOY!
THAT is what I want for you! It’s completely possible and I’m here to help you every step of the way!
One of the things I hear sometimes that makes me chuckle inside is, “It’s easier for you…”
I don’t think it is easier for anyone. And that’s the point. That’s where growth happens. We make our greatest discoveries when we are challenged.
My 4th baby was 4 months old when my husband deployed for Afghanistan for 8 months. My oldest was 6 ½ years old.
At first, I buckled up. I’m tough. I’ve got this, I thought.
But things fell apart…
I didn’t know how to feel my emotions so I succumbed to Heath bars, shopping for shoes online and watching too many episodes of Modern Family to deal.
I got depressed and anxious. I started to yell at my kids. And not just yell nicely (like that’s a thing), but crazy… I scared myself.
My son’s Mother’s Day card that year went like this:
“Happy Mother’s DAY!… My Mom looks like this… She likes to eat kale… I do lots of work for her… The End.”
Awww… wait a minute… “Hey hon, why do my eyes look all squinty like that?”
“Because that is what you look like when you’re yelling.”
There wasn’t anything I could do, I thought.
Everything will get better when he gets home, I thought.
It was great to have my husband back, don’t get me wrong. But I had created behavior patterns of anger and anxiety and bad habits that were still a part of me that weren’t going to, POOF! Disappear.
I started to realize I was the problem. And I knew if I didn’t get help, I would be miserable with myself and my relationships with the people I loved most. So I reached out for help. (HUGE for me!)
The first question Samatha-the-Therapist asked me was, “What are you doing for yourself?”
My thought, “Wait a second… Is that a thing!?… What does that even look like?…”
She changed my life. While working with her, I probably shaved decades of heartache and hardship off my life. She got me to start thinking about things differently. Mainly, that it was okay to take some time for myself without the guilt.
9 months later, we moved to Germany. And right before we moved, I got a strong impression to homeschool my kids. Wait… what?!? I know. That’s another story, though. Not for today.
Germany was beautiful and there were a lot of great things about our assignment there. But it was also really hard.
There were few Americans in the area. We were outsiders. And we homeschooled (which is illegal for Germans). And We we’re near-vegan and Mormon. (In the land of schnitzel and schnapps.)
We were So. Weird.
The weather was gray from mid-October to about the beginning of May. I didn’t realize I was susceptible to Seasonal Affective Disorder (seasonal depression) until my first winter there.
I felt so far from normal and ALL i wanted to do was stay in bed all day.
Gloomy. Anxious. Isolated. Overwhelmed and inadequate.
It took me about 18 months before I was only crying once a week.
So I reached out again.
This time to a homeschooling mentor. Angie. She was my Godsend. Angie the Angel. And the first question she asked me was, “What are you doing for yourself?”
*Noticing a pattern here!?*
Angie helped me see that my happiness was directly related to my choices. Not only with how I spent my time, but what I was thinking about.
She saw so much potential in me. She was helping me work on ME. This kept me believing in myself AND it gave me permission to dream! Something I had not done for a long time.
While working with her, I knew I needed something to help me get through the gloomy winter. So I signed up for a Half-Ironman triathlon in Mallorca, Spain in May. (Because that is the thought process of logical human beings!)
I had 10 months to train and get my buns from zero to 70.3.
This event changed my life. I didn’t know it at the time, but I had to change what I thought was possible for myself and my life.
What was I really capable of?!
My only focus was the finish line. I knew I needed to work hard so I woudn’t die on the course, but I didn’t want to just be limping along. I really wanted to finish strong!
I finished about 80% of my workouts, I was eating super well and I made it through the winter with no effects from the depression and anxity that had plagued my life the previous two winters!
Through my actions I started to create new identities and beliefs about myself: strong, vibrant, capable, healthy, fit, empowered, determined, productive, intentional…
It was a complete 180 and a total miracle for me!
When I crossed the finish line I realized I could do anything!
ANYTHING is possible!
I was proud of myself for completing the triathlon, but I was more excited that I had overcome my own demons of depression and anxiety, overwhelm, self-pity, and fatigue.
The feeling of empowerment that came from knowing I had a CHOICE! – that I could create a positive, healthy, vibrant outcome – blew my own mind!
This was the start! It’s not about homeschooling or triathlons (unless those are you goals, but I’m guessing they aren’t).
It’s about overcoming our own thoughts patterns and negative beleifs to live a life that inspires US. One that gets us excited to get out of bed every day.
THAT, my friend, is what’s possible for YOU!
I am here to show you a different way so you can start to spiral up and unlock your dormant, untapped potential to reach your dreams too!
Believing in YOU!
My Coaching Style?
Genuine. Well-researched. Determined. Encouraging. Uplifting and Inspiring. Intentional. Strategic. Your Guide. Always cheering for you!